Money..I have seen what it does to people, I am in the middle of what it does to people. I struggle not to obsess over it as well. We can’t escape it. We can manage it. We should never let it take over our lives.
Preoccupiation over money by those around me has caused suicides, unnecessary family splits, envy, jealousy, bitterness. It generally brings out the worst in people. As for myself, as I haven’t ever had much of it, it is hard for me to spend it. If i do spend money its rarely on myself unless its for food. I budget and when I am out of my budget, I am out of my comfort zone. Money is a very uncomfortable subject for me. I don’t know how to receive it and I am bad at giving it. I am always worried that it will offend people if I ask them to share the cost. And money is partly the reason I am in South Korea. I made quite a few bad financial judgments which caused my debt to soar..not an unreasonable amount..but for me who likes to be in control, it was out of control. So i pay off more debt than I spend in a month in the hopes that soon it will be gone. When I was in Canada, the obsession over how to get rid of the debt was eating away like a disease. But money is not hte only reason I am over here, and slowly becomes the smallest reason.
Learning to let go is hard but very freeing. Now my reasons for coming here are many. And worrying about money has gone from the highest priority to one of the lowest.
I hope that any of you who have problems with money, learn to manage it without becoming obsessed with it. There is so much in South Korea and in the world to enjoy in a responsible way .
